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"You can have the results you say you want, or you can have all the reasons in the world why you can’t have them. But you can’t have both. Reasons or results. You get to choose."


Susan Carlson

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Random Updates

I was thinking about the joy of unconditional acceptance.  And how it made it easier to both be and accept myself.

And how family acceptance is wonderful but just not the same as a complete stranger falling in love with the authentic, unadulterated, warts ‘n’ all me.
About how being able to be comfortable being 100% me around someone enables me to enjoy being me.  And also enables me to be 100% me around others.  And enjoy it.

And I was going to write a long blog about it.

Then I got bogged down in stuff about how I was possessive and insecure in my relationships and struggled to let new people into my life.  And that was boring and depressing and the past.  So I deleted it.

Then I got distracted by telling one of the guys on my team about how I got a new game for my DS last night and was so excited and raced to play it…  only to discover it was a game I already had that had been renamed :(.  He laughed which made me feel good.  So I told a couple more people.  Of course when I told them it was longer and funnier.  I promise.

Then I had breakfast.  A gluten free toasted sandwich with chicken, tomato and cheese accompanied by a skinny hot chocolate. 

I feel all warm inside now.

I enjoy making people smile.   I enjoy warm food on a cold winters morning. 
 
It has been a long time since I wrote a grateful list.  I have a lot to be grateful for.  But the first 5 that come to me are:
  1. My husband
  2. My family
  3. My friends
  4. Self acceptance
  5. Gainful employment

1 comments:

anne h said...

I am grateful, too for friends....and I count online blogging friends at the top of the list!
Gainful employment is always good too.
It's easier to accept your life when you actually like it!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

Random Updates

I was thinking about the joy of unconditional acceptance.  And how it made it easier to both be and accept myself.

And how family acceptance is wonderful but just not the same as a complete stranger falling in love with the authentic, unadulterated, warts ‘n’ all me.
About how being able to be comfortable being 100% me around someone enables me to enjoy being me.  And also enables me to be 100% me around others.  And enjoy it.

And I was going to write a long blog about it.

Then I got bogged down in stuff about how I was possessive and insecure in my relationships and struggled to let new people into my life.  And that was boring and depressing and the past.  So I deleted it.

Then I got distracted by telling one of the guys on my team about how I got a new game for my DS last night and was so excited and raced to play it…  only to discover it was a game I already had that had been renamed :(.  He laughed which made me feel good.  So I told a couple more people.  Of course when I told them it was longer and funnier.  I promise.

Then I had breakfast.  A gluten free toasted sandwich with chicken, tomato and cheese accompanied by a skinny hot chocolate. 

I feel all warm inside now.

I enjoy making people smile.   I enjoy warm food on a cold winters morning. 
 
It has been a long time since I wrote a grateful list.  I have a lot to be grateful for.  But the first 5 that come to me are:
  1. My husband
  2. My family
  3. My friends
  4. Self acceptance
  5. Gainful employment

1 comments:

anne h said...

I am grateful, too for friends....and I count online blogging friends at the top of the list!
Gainful employment is always good too.
It's easier to accept your life when you actually like it!