Buster Update

Sadly Buster wanted to eat our cat.

So today he was surrendered in order to find a home that was cat free.

He has a lovely personality (other than his wanting to kill the cat of course) so I hope he is successful.

Expensive mistake, but these things happen.

My body philosophy

I thought I would share with you some of my new approach to my body.  I will use (my favourite) point form and just tell you the thoughts as they come to me:

• My body knows best.  I listen to it's signals and cravings.  I eat when hungry and I eat the thing that will most satisfy me (based on the available options).
• No food is banned, bad, limited, avoided (other than gluten of course due to my coeliac disease!)
• Food is not the enemy.  Food is a combination of fat, protein and carbs.  Food is a combination of flavours and textures.  Food gives me pleasure and fuel to do what I need to do each day.  Food gives me much needed minerals and vitamins to repair and strengthen my body.  Food is not why I am obese.  I am.
• I weigh myself when I feel the urge, and if the number is higher than my last WI I ignore it and try again another day.  I no longer record weight gains because they are temporary aberrations
• I do not count points, calories, fat etc.  But I do have a lot of knowledge from years and years of following WW.  That knowledge helps guide my choices.
• I exercise for fun, fitness, my new dog, strength and to clear my mind
• I take time each day to do something purely for stress relief
• I try to remember what an amazing thing my body is.  I try to celebrate all the good things.  I try to take care of my body so it supports me into the very old age I hope to live to.

This is very different to the approaches I have tried for years.  I always felt I needed strong guidelines and 'caps' such as point or calorie limits in order to lose weight.  For me that meant ignoring my body (ie hunger and fullness signals) and eating low point/calorie meals to enable enough 'room' in my allowance for treats.  I know that many many people are successful counting points or calories, but I needed to change my approach cos for me that was just not working.

I love my new approach... it is kind of the anti diet.  It comes so naturally and I am losing weight!

Thanks for reading :)

New training device....

Meet Buster.

We 'rescued' him from a shelter this morning.  He is a 2 year old Labrador cross (crossed with many things!) with a gentle personality.  He loves attention and affection and will be fabulous once he and the cat are ready to be allowed to be in the same room together! 

Quick Update - Friday

Well I slept much better after my brain dump!

And today I have:

Called my hairdresser at 10am (when he opened, I tried many times before that!) to find he could fix my fringe if I got there before 11am!  I jumped in a taxi ($13 each way – well spent) and went out to Albert Park.  He fixed my fringe (shorter and fuller) free of charge (not a question of that) and I jumped in a taxi back to work!  Was at my desk again by 10:40am.

Booked my waxing for Thursday night.

Booked a blow dry the morning of my party.

Decided (though not yet discussed with DH!!) to wait two more weeks before we get a dog.

That allows tomorrow for shopping for a new top!

Work is chaos and lunch is just not going to happen.  Meetings and updates required every 30 minutes!  

Get out of my head!!

Too much swimming around in my head - so afraid you get a brain dump to read!

Can I squeeze in a trip to my hairdressers to fix my new fringe (it's too long and not full enough) or do I go to a local one?

What should I wear to my 40th?  It's a BBQ at home...  I need a new top to wear with jeans...  uugghhh I hate top shopping... (yes losing more weight would help!)

Should we go get a dog Saturday or is that silly with the working bee at Dad's on Sunday and then the BBQ here next Saturday?  Should we wait?  What if the two cute dogs I have my eye on are gone in 2 weeks...  uggghhh!

Why did DH hide my birthday gift in the cupboard in my exercise room??  I was looking for a book not my gift!  At least it is something I wanted!

Why does my back hurt?  Stress?  Sitting too long at work today?  Wonder how long before the nurofen kicks in?

Should I take my birthday off work (and lose a days pay) or go to work?

Ok, I think that is it...

Night all!

Quick Update

I slept well last night!  I was going to sleep in the spare bed as I was so stressed about keeping DH awake, but he convinced me to stay in our bed and I am glad I did cos there was no coughing and no stomach issues so I slept and so did he!

Amazing how much better a good nights sleep makes you feel!

Today I even feel slimmer.  Not slim.  Still obese.  But my clothes feel a little less clingy.

I had an interesting issue yesterday.   I was cold.  And I seem to have no indoor warm clothing!  I have outdoor coats and jackets.  But only one jumper/pullover (which was in the wash).  What did I wear last year??  Was I never cold?  So today I hope to find some cheap warm clothing to wear at home etc when I feel cold.    Of course going shopping will require me to stop blogging and leave my desk…

No Sleep

My cough won’t go.

On days I am at home it is better – it doesn’t like office air apparently.

But I am keeping my DH awake.

And he has to drive all day.

Tired.

He can’t work from home like I can.

So last night there was no coughing.

But there was a stress induced stomach ache.

Which had me out of bed and in a warm bath at 3am.

Which woke up DH.

And he told me to come back to bed.

Which I misunderstood.

He sleeps badly when I am not beside him.

But last night he just wanted me to stay in one place.

Sadly I stayed beside him but could not get comfortable. 

My stomach ache came with it’s very own back ache.

So DH slept badly from 3am.

At 5:30 when he got up, exhausted, I cried.

I am exhausted too. 

But I can work from home.

I suggested he have a day off but he declined.

What if he has an accident?

Stress.

Tonight if I can’t sleep I will close the bedroom door and do what I need to do.

Without disturbing him.

I need sleep so badly.

So does he.