Still got sore throat. Got asked Friday if I was going to get a job as a phone sex person!
It was a long weekend for us (Anzac Day) and it was busy!
Saturday – birthday BBQ for 2 year old nephew and 4year old niece
Sunday – birthday BBQ for 4 year old nephew
Monday – party for DH’s 40th at our house. Only about 25 people
Scattered throughout were work requests, emails and phone calls.
Tomorrow is DH’s actual birthday so going out for dinner.
This weekend is Dad’s 60th party Saturday night and Aunt’s birthday event on Sunday.
I lost weight last week. I lost more weight in the last 2 weeks since I decided to give up on WW for a while than I have in weeks. I am sure my cold has something to do with that.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Where am I at?
Where am I at?
I am collecting myself. It’s the best way to describe how I feel.
I felt very scattered and messy the past few months.
Bit by bit I am getting myself back in order.
I am also trying to make a decision.
WW works but I don’t stick with it.
Eating only when hungry also works for me but I have had trouble in the past with ‘impulse control’ and emotional eating. But I have not tried this approach since I started with my ADD medication. This approach appeals to me a LOT more than WW. But I worry it is a cop out. I feel like it is not a diet so it can’t work.
I am thinking I should find the hypnotherapy CD’s from when I saw a psychologist who believes 100% in the ‘not dieting’ approach and claimed a 75% success rate. Maybe now that I am on the ADD meds I should give this approach another try? They suggested 3 months scale free while taking this approach as it can take practice to get it right. Not sure about that.
I also have lots of information from Dr Rick Kausman who wrote “If not dieting, then what” and has had lots of success.
I think my goals for this week are:
- Do floor work 3 times
- listen to the hypnotherapy CD's
- read the 'if not dieting' book
- see what the scales say next Saturday
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Answers
I am annoyed at myself.
I have lost and gained the same 14kg so many times in the past 12 years that I am bored. I never go higher than 96kg or lower than 82kg.
I am comfortable!
Right now I am 92.something. Not at my highest. Way too comfortable.
I am simply not motivated to put in the effort required to lose weight. I don’t tend to pile on weight quickly when I am ‘off track’ and in fact sometimes lose weight with no ‘effort’.
I know (as per my blog last week) that I will feel so much better at a healthy weight.
But being at this weight doesn’t feel hard, only mildly inconvenient.
Mild inconvenience is not going to get me slim without some other motivation.
But I am having trouble finding it.
I read other peoples stories, I talk to people I know. I love success stories. I know my issues are mere matchsticks compared to the walls some people have had to get through to lose weight. But when I read or hear a story about successful weight loss I think “well I wouldn’t / couldn’t make those sacrifices”. The only success stories that I feel I could do are the ‘eat only when hungry’ ones. But a big part of me feels that that approach won’t actually work.
I know the answers are in me, not in a blog or another person’s success. I am just having trouble finding them.
I have lost and gained the same 14kg so many times in the past 12 years that I am bored. I never go higher than 96kg or lower than 82kg.
I am comfortable!
Right now I am 92.something. Not at my highest. Way too comfortable.
I am simply not motivated to put in the effort required to lose weight. I don’t tend to pile on weight quickly when I am ‘off track’ and in fact sometimes lose weight with no ‘effort’.
I know (as per my blog last week) that I will feel so much better at a healthy weight.
But being at this weight doesn’t feel hard, only mildly inconvenient.
Mild inconvenience is not going to get me slim without some other motivation.
But I am having trouble finding it.
I read other peoples stories, I talk to people I know. I love success stories. I know my issues are mere matchsticks compared to the walls some people have had to get through to lose weight. But when I read or hear a story about successful weight loss I think “well I wouldn’t / couldn’t make those sacrifices”. The only success stories that I feel I could do are the ‘eat only when hungry’ ones. But a big part of me feels that that approach won’t actually work.
I know the answers are in me, not in a blog or another person’s success. I am just having trouble finding them.
AWOL
Sorry I have been a bit absent this week.
Not such a good week for me.
Add to that really busy at work and getting home late.....
I have not read a blog in days.
Life is wonderful. I am just in a bit of a funk and a bit stressed.
Just a quick snapshot of the wonderful, but busy weeks ahead:
Friday 16th birthday tea for Mum
Monday 19th Mum's birthday (tea is early as my sister is going away)
Saturday 24th birthday party for niece and nephew
Sunday 25th birthday party for other nephew
Monday 26th Ian's 40th birthday party (at home, I am organising)
Wednesday 28th Ian and Dad's birthday
Saturday 1st May Dad's 60th party
Sunday May 9th Mothers day and step mothers birthday
In between all of that is work (really busy right now, 10 hours days plus the 3 to 4 hour commute), getting my hair done (involves about 5 hours of a Saturday due to location of hairdresser!!), buying gifts for all the birthdays, finding time to get the cat to the vet, keeping on top of housework, keeping Ian's spirits up while he really misses his Mum and sister around this special birthday, dealing with Dad's cancer recurrence and surgery booked for 18th May... and of course trying (and failing) to find the motivation to exercise and stick to WW because I know that none of the above is an excuse for not doing so.
So that is me. Warts and all. Not sticking to WW. Only one floor work session so far this week. And it is after midnight and my alarm goes off at 6:30 so I must stop typing and go to bed!!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Guilt
I laugh about having an ‘overactive guilt gland’ but in reality it can be really hard to live with.
There is the family ‘bun story’ which is long and basically involves me (about age 10) confessing, sobbing, in the middle of the night about the bite of a bun I took 2 years earlier. My parents reacted with laughter and have since repeated that story over and over again.
There is the difficulty in stopping ‘people pleasing’. The guilt from saying ‘No’ far outweighs the pain of just keeping everyone happy.
Then there is today. I was given a small piece of information at work that was required for work my team had been engaged to do. I had a question related to that information so I emailed some people with my question and I included the information.
Literally one minute later I received an email in response to another I had sent saying that I was not allowed access to that piece of information and that my team was not to do the work.
I ‘recalled’ my email but it was read by some people.
Even though I was not told the information was confidential until after I had sent my email, even though the person who gave it to me did not know it was confidential, even though I know I would not have sent it had I known, I feel incredibly guilty.
And guilt makes me want to eat chocolate. (I am resisting the urge)
I really feel I need to deal with my feelings of guilt. It can’t be right to feel guilty about things that I know are out of my control.
There is the family ‘bun story’ which is long and basically involves me (about age 10) confessing, sobbing, in the middle of the night about the bite of a bun I took 2 years earlier. My parents reacted with laughter and have since repeated that story over and over again.
There is the difficulty in stopping ‘people pleasing’. The guilt from saying ‘No’ far outweighs the pain of just keeping everyone happy.
Then there is today. I was given a small piece of information at work that was required for work my team had been engaged to do. I had a question related to that information so I emailed some people with my question and I included the information.
Literally one minute later I received an email in response to another I had sent saying that I was not allowed access to that piece of information and that my team was not to do the work.
I ‘recalled’ my email but it was read by some people.
Even though I was not told the information was confidential until after I had sent my email, even though the person who gave it to me did not know it was confidential, even though I know I would not have sent it had I known, I feel incredibly guilty.
And guilt makes me want to eat chocolate. (I am resisting the urge)
I really feel I need to deal with my feelings of guilt. It can’t be right to feel guilty about things that I know are out of my control.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Slim Me
Sometimes I write without purpose.
Then the purpose comes to me later.
Yesterday’s “Me” post was one of those. Those paragraphs actually ‘appeared’ at the end of my “Failure Badge” blog. I was not sure where they came from, but they certainly didn’t fit that topic so I created a second blog.
Then this morning I had an ‘aha’ moment.
I think that everybody approaches their journey to the best version of themselves differently. There is never a right or wrong way. We all know calories in must be less than calories out in order to lose weight. Other than that the paths are many and varied.
I think there are also different results even when you meet your ‘goal’. For example you can be 65kg and do very little exercise. You will need to eat a little less to maintain that weight. You will have less muscle definition. (Not necessarily compared to someone else, but compared to the version of you who exercised). Or you can be a 65kg gym regular. Given muscle takes up less room than fat you may be slightly smaller than the non exercising version of you. You may be able to eat a little more and still maintain your weight. You are more likely to be toned. Neither of these options is better or worse than the other.
For me I really think about 2 ‘paths’. In reality the actions are identical, but the thoughts and motivation differ.
My two paths are “food” and “exercise”.
“Food” path focuses on eating the right things to get to goal weight. Exercise is a support activity to help burn more calories and improve my appearance.
“Exercise” path focuses on exercise goals. Eating right and losing weight are the support activities. Eating for fuel and losing weight to make exercise more enjoyable and pain free.
So when I blogged yesterday about not knowing who I was and wanted to be, it really came back to this.
I was a slim teenager who did minimal exercise. I was really lacking in co-ordination, hand-eye especially. And being Australia the focus at school was nearly always on team sports involving balls… not really my thing! Being the 80’s I did do aerobics once a week for a while… but that soon became just an excuse to meet the guys from the gym room afterwards!
In my 20’s I did pretty much no exercise. I got to WW goal (yep, I am a lifetime member in the UK) with only incidental exercise. Being without a car in the UK meant there was a fair bit of incidental exercise I admit. But I still did nothing ‘extra’.
In my early 30’s I required a knee reconstruction. After the surgery I was on a strict rehabilitation exercise program and ‘accidentally’ lost 10kg. And discovered I loved to ride my bike! After that I got a personal trainer who came to my house twice a week. And discovered I loved running!
I have never actually been slim and fit at the same time.
This morning the image of how I want to be when I am slim came to me very clearly.
I want to be a runner.
I want to lose weight so that my joints hurt less. I want to eat right to fuel my body. I want a runner’s body, slim and toned. I want to do weights and cross train to reduce injury.
The plan changes not at all. Weight Watchers and floor work to strengthen my hip and core until I can start doing more cardio. Short walks until I can start the C25K again. But I feel more motivated and focussed.
My first goal is the 14km ‘run4thekids’ race which is next in March/April 2011. But if I reach this goal the year following that is fine too – as long as I am happy I have done everything I can to reach it. I know I have to be patient with my hip.
Wow, long blog! Well done if you read this far!
Then the purpose comes to me later.
Yesterday’s “Me” post was one of those. Those paragraphs actually ‘appeared’ at the end of my “Failure Badge” blog. I was not sure where they came from, but they certainly didn’t fit that topic so I created a second blog.
Then this morning I had an ‘aha’ moment.
I think that everybody approaches their journey to the best version of themselves differently. There is never a right or wrong way. We all know calories in must be less than calories out in order to lose weight. Other than that the paths are many and varied.
I think there are also different results even when you meet your ‘goal’. For example you can be 65kg and do very little exercise. You will need to eat a little less to maintain that weight. You will have less muscle definition. (Not necessarily compared to someone else, but compared to the version of you who exercised). Or you can be a 65kg gym regular. Given muscle takes up less room than fat you may be slightly smaller than the non exercising version of you. You may be able to eat a little more and still maintain your weight. You are more likely to be toned. Neither of these options is better or worse than the other.
For me I really think about 2 ‘paths’. In reality the actions are identical, but the thoughts and motivation differ.
My two paths are “food” and “exercise”.
“Food” path focuses on eating the right things to get to goal weight. Exercise is a support activity to help burn more calories and improve my appearance.
“Exercise” path focuses on exercise goals. Eating right and losing weight are the support activities. Eating for fuel and losing weight to make exercise more enjoyable and pain free.
So when I blogged yesterday about not knowing who I was and wanted to be, it really came back to this.
I was a slim teenager who did minimal exercise. I was really lacking in co-ordination, hand-eye especially. And being Australia the focus at school was nearly always on team sports involving balls… not really my thing! Being the 80’s I did do aerobics once a week for a while… but that soon became just an excuse to meet the guys from the gym room afterwards!
In my 20’s I did pretty much no exercise. I got to WW goal (yep, I am a lifetime member in the UK) with only incidental exercise. Being without a car in the UK meant there was a fair bit of incidental exercise I admit. But I still did nothing ‘extra’.
In my early 30’s I required a knee reconstruction. After the surgery I was on a strict rehabilitation exercise program and ‘accidentally’ lost 10kg. And discovered I loved to ride my bike! After that I got a personal trainer who came to my house twice a week. And discovered I loved running!
I have never actually been slim and fit at the same time.
This morning the image of how I want to be when I am slim came to me very clearly.
I want to be a runner.
I want to lose weight so that my joints hurt less. I want to eat right to fuel my body. I want a runner’s body, slim and toned. I want to do weights and cross train to reduce injury.
The plan changes not at all. Weight Watchers and floor work to strengthen my hip and core until I can start doing more cardio. Short walks until I can start the C25K again. But I feel more motivated and focussed.
My first goal is the 14km ‘run4thekids’ race which is next in March/April 2011. But if I reach this goal the year following that is fine too – as long as I am happy I have done everything I can to reach it. I know I have to be patient with my hip.
Wow, long blog! Well done if you read this far!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Me
I am easily swayed. If I talk to my step brother about triathlons I want to take part. Last nights Australian TBL with them running a marathon makes me want to run a marathon. Women who embrace their size make me want to be more accepting of myself. Women who dress with individuality and flair make me want to do the same.
I need to have a much stronger picture of who I am. I used to. It got lost somewhere in the past 10 years.
I know who I want to be on the inside. But what I don’t know is how I want that to be shown.
I can’t picture a slim me without trying to paste my head on someone else’s body.
I need to have a much stronger picture of who I am. I used to. It got lost somewhere in the past 10 years.
I know who I want to be on the inside. But what I don’t know is how I want that to be shown.
I can’t picture a slim me without trying to paste my head on someone else’s body.
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
Tuesday Already?
Still got sore throat. Got asked Friday if I was going to get a job as a phone sex person!
It was a long weekend for us (Anzac Day) and it was busy!
Saturday – birthday BBQ for 2 year old nephew and 4year old niece
Sunday – birthday BBQ for 4 year old nephew
Monday – party for DH’s 40th at our house. Only about 25 people
Scattered throughout were work requests, emails and phone calls.
Tomorrow is DH’s actual birthday so going out for dinner.
This weekend is Dad’s 60th party Saturday night and Aunt’s birthday event on Sunday.
I lost weight last week. I lost more weight in the last 2 weeks since I decided to give up on WW for a while than I have in weeks. I am sure my cold has something to do with that.
It was a long weekend for us (Anzac Day) and it was busy!
Saturday – birthday BBQ for 2 year old nephew and 4year old niece
Sunday – birthday BBQ for 4 year old nephew
Monday – party for DH’s 40th at our house. Only about 25 people
Scattered throughout were work requests, emails and phone calls.
Tomorrow is DH’s actual birthday so going out for dinner.
This weekend is Dad’s 60th party Saturday night and Aunt’s birthday event on Sunday.
I lost weight last week. I lost more weight in the last 2 weeks since I decided to give up on WW for a while than I have in weeks. I am sure my cold has something to do with that.
Sunday, April 18, 2010
Where am I at?
Where am I at?
I am collecting myself. It’s the best way to describe how I feel.
I felt very scattered and messy the past few months.
Bit by bit I am getting myself back in order.
I am also trying to make a decision.
WW works but I don’t stick with it.
Eating only when hungry also works for me but I have had trouble in the past with ‘impulse control’ and emotional eating. But I have not tried this approach since I started with my ADD medication. This approach appeals to me a LOT more than WW. But I worry it is a cop out. I feel like it is not a diet so it can’t work.
I am thinking I should find the hypnotherapy CD’s from when I saw a psychologist who believes 100% in the ‘not dieting’ approach and claimed a 75% success rate. Maybe now that I am on the ADD meds I should give this approach another try? They suggested 3 months scale free while taking this approach as it can take practice to get it right. Not sure about that.
I also have lots of information from Dr Rick Kausman who wrote “If not dieting, then what” and has had lots of success.
I think my goals for this week are:
- Do floor work 3 times
- listen to the hypnotherapy CD's
- read the 'if not dieting' book
- see what the scales say next Saturday
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Answers
I am annoyed at myself.
I have lost and gained the same 14kg so many times in the past 12 years that I am bored. I never go higher than 96kg or lower than 82kg.
I am comfortable!
Right now I am 92.something. Not at my highest. Way too comfortable.
I am simply not motivated to put in the effort required to lose weight. I don’t tend to pile on weight quickly when I am ‘off track’ and in fact sometimes lose weight with no ‘effort’.
I know (as per my blog last week) that I will feel so much better at a healthy weight.
But being at this weight doesn’t feel hard, only mildly inconvenient.
Mild inconvenience is not going to get me slim without some other motivation.
But I am having trouble finding it.
I read other peoples stories, I talk to people I know. I love success stories. I know my issues are mere matchsticks compared to the walls some people have had to get through to lose weight. But when I read or hear a story about successful weight loss I think “well I wouldn’t / couldn’t make those sacrifices”. The only success stories that I feel I could do are the ‘eat only when hungry’ ones. But a big part of me feels that that approach won’t actually work.
I know the answers are in me, not in a blog or another person’s success. I am just having trouble finding them.
I have lost and gained the same 14kg so many times in the past 12 years that I am bored. I never go higher than 96kg or lower than 82kg.
I am comfortable!
Right now I am 92.something. Not at my highest. Way too comfortable.
I am simply not motivated to put in the effort required to lose weight. I don’t tend to pile on weight quickly when I am ‘off track’ and in fact sometimes lose weight with no ‘effort’.
I know (as per my blog last week) that I will feel so much better at a healthy weight.
But being at this weight doesn’t feel hard, only mildly inconvenient.
Mild inconvenience is not going to get me slim without some other motivation.
But I am having trouble finding it.
I read other peoples stories, I talk to people I know. I love success stories. I know my issues are mere matchsticks compared to the walls some people have had to get through to lose weight. But when I read or hear a story about successful weight loss I think “well I wouldn’t / couldn’t make those sacrifices”. The only success stories that I feel I could do are the ‘eat only when hungry’ ones. But a big part of me feels that that approach won’t actually work.
I know the answers are in me, not in a blog or another person’s success. I am just having trouble finding them.
AWOL
Sorry I have been a bit absent this week.
Not such a good week for me.
Add to that really busy at work and getting home late.....
I have not read a blog in days.
Life is wonderful. I am just in a bit of a funk and a bit stressed.
Just a quick snapshot of the wonderful, but busy weeks ahead:
Friday 16th birthday tea for Mum
Monday 19th Mum's birthday (tea is early as my sister is going away)
Saturday 24th birthday party for niece and nephew
Sunday 25th birthday party for other nephew
Monday 26th Ian's 40th birthday party (at home, I am organising)
Wednesday 28th Ian and Dad's birthday
Saturday 1st May Dad's 60th party
Sunday May 9th Mothers day and step mothers birthday
In between all of that is work (really busy right now, 10 hours days plus the 3 to 4 hour commute), getting my hair done (involves about 5 hours of a Saturday due to location of hairdresser!!), buying gifts for all the birthdays, finding time to get the cat to the vet, keeping on top of housework, keeping Ian's spirits up while he really misses his Mum and sister around this special birthday, dealing with Dad's cancer recurrence and surgery booked for 18th May... and of course trying (and failing) to find the motivation to exercise and stick to WW because I know that none of the above is an excuse for not doing so.
So that is me. Warts and all. Not sticking to WW. Only one floor work session so far this week. And it is after midnight and my alarm goes off at 6:30 so I must stop typing and go to bed!!
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
Guilt
I laugh about having an ‘overactive guilt gland’ but in reality it can be really hard to live with.
There is the family ‘bun story’ which is long and basically involves me (about age 10) confessing, sobbing, in the middle of the night about the bite of a bun I took 2 years earlier. My parents reacted with laughter and have since repeated that story over and over again.
There is the difficulty in stopping ‘people pleasing’. The guilt from saying ‘No’ far outweighs the pain of just keeping everyone happy.
Then there is today. I was given a small piece of information at work that was required for work my team had been engaged to do. I had a question related to that information so I emailed some people with my question and I included the information.
Literally one minute later I received an email in response to another I had sent saying that I was not allowed access to that piece of information and that my team was not to do the work.
I ‘recalled’ my email but it was read by some people.
Even though I was not told the information was confidential until after I had sent my email, even though the person who gave it to me did not know it was confidential, even though I know I would not have sent it had I known, I feel incredibly guilty.
And guilt makes me want to eat chocolate. (I am resisting the urge)
I really feel I need to deal with my feelings of guilt. It can’t be right to feel guilty about things that I know are out of my control.
There is the family ‘bun story’ which is long and basically involves me (about age 10) confessing, sobbing, in the middle of the night about the bite of a bun I took 2 years earlier. My parents reacted with laughter and have since repeated that story over and over again.
There is the difficulty in stopping ‘people pleasing’. The guilt from saying ‘No’ far outweighs the pain of just keeping everyone happy.
Then there is today. I was given a small piece of information at work that was required for work my team had been engaged to do. I had a question related to that information so I emailed some people with my question and I included the information.
Literally one minute later I received an email in response to another I had sent saying that I was not allowed access to that piece of information and that my team was not to do the work.
I ‘recalled’ my email but it was read by some people.
Even though I was not told the information was confidential until after I had sent my email, even though the person who gave it to me did not know it was confidential, even though I know I would not have sent it had I known, I feel incredibly guilty.
And guilt makes me want to eat chocolate. (I am resisting the urge)
I really feel I need to deal with my feelings of guilt. It can’t be right to feel guilty about things that I know are out of my control.
Friday, April 9, 2010
Slim Me
Sometimes I write without purpose.
Then the purpose comes to me later.
Yesterday’s “Me” post was one of those. Those paragraphs actually ‘appeared’ at the end of my “Failure Badge” blog. I was not sure where they came from, but they certainly didn’t fit that topic so I created a second blog.
Then this morning I had an ‘aha’ moment.
I think that everybody approaches their journey to the best version of themselves differently. There is never a right or wrong way. We all know calories in must be less than calories out in order to lose weight. Other than that the paths are many and varied.
I think there are also different results even when you meet your ‘goal’. For example you can be 65kg and do very little exercise. You will need to eat a little less to maintain that weight. You will have less muscle definition. (Not necessarily compared to someone else, but compared to the version of you who exercised). Or you can be a 65kg gym regular. Given muscle takes up less room than fat you may be slightly smaller than the non exercising version of you. You may be able to eat a little more and still maintain your weight. You are more likely to be toned. Neither of these options is better or worse than the other.
For me I really think about 2 ‘paths’. In reality the actions are identical, but the thoughts and motivation differ.
My two paths are “food” and “exercise”.
“Food” path focuses on eating the right things to get to goal weight. Exercise is a support activity to help burn more calories and improve my appearance.
“Exercise” path focuses on exercise goals. Eating right and losing weight are the support activities. Eating for fuel and losing weight to make exercise more enjoyable and pain free.
So when I blogged yesterday about not knowing who I was and wanted to be, it really came back to this.
I was a slim teenager who did minimal exercise. I was really lacking in co-ordination, hand-eye especially. And being Australia the focus at school was nearly always on team sports involving balls… not really my thing! Being the 80’s I did do aerobics once a week for a while… but that soon became just an excuse to meet the guys from the gym room afterwards!
In my 20’s I did pretty much no exercise. I got to WW goal (yep, I am a lifetime member in the UK) with only incidental exercise. Being without a car in the UK meant there was a fair bit of incidental exercise I admit. But I still did nothing ‘extra’.
In my early 30’s I required a knee reconstruction. After the surgery I was on a strict rehabilitation exercise program and ‘accidentally’ lost 10kg. And discovered I loved to ride my bike! After that I got a personal trainer who came to my house twice a week. And discovered I loved running!
I have never actually been slim and fit at the same time.
This morning the image of how I want to be when I am slim came to me very clearly.
I want to be a runner.
I want to lose weight so that my joints hurt less. I want to eat right to fuel my body. I want a runner’s body, slim and toned. I want to do weights and cross train to reduce injury.
The plan changes not at all. Weight Watchers and floor work to strengthen my hip and core until I can start doing more cardio. Short walks until I can start the C25K again. But I feel more motivated and focussed.
My first goal is the 14km ‘run4thekids’ race which is next in March/April 2011. But if I reach this goal the year following that is fine too – as long as I am happy I have done everything I can to reach it. I know I have to be patient with my hip.
Wow, long blog! Well done if you read this far!
Then the purpose comes to me later.
Yesterday’s “Me” post was one of those. Those paragraphs actually ‘appeared’ at the end of my “Failure Badge” blog. I was not sure where they came from, but they certainly didn’t fit that topic so I created a second blog.
Then this morning I had an ‘aha’ moment.
I think that everybody approaches their journey to the best version of themselves differently. There is never a right or wrong way. We all know calories in must be less than calories out in order to lose weight. Other than that the paths are many and varied.
I think there are also different results even when you meet your ‘goal’. For example you can be 65kg and do very little exercise. You will need to eat a little less to maintain that weight. You will have less muscle definition. (Not necessarily compared to someone else, but compared to the version of you who exercised). Or you can be a 65kg gym regular. Given muscle takes up less room than fat you may be slightly smaller than the non exercising version of you. You may be able to eat a little more and still maintain your weight. You are more likely to be toned. Neither of these options is better or worse than the other.
For me I really think about 2 ‘paths’. In reality the actions are identical, but the thoughts and motivation differ.
My two paths are “food” and “exercise”.
“Food” path focuses on eating the right things to get to goal weight. Exercise is a support activity to help burn more calories and improve my appearance.
“Exercise” path focuses on exercise goals. Eating right and losing weight are the support activities. Eating for fuel and losing weight to make exercise more enjoyable and pain free.
So when I blogged yesterday about not knowing who I was and wanted to be, it really came back to this.
I was a slim teenager who did minimal exercise. I was really lacking in co-ordination, hand-eye especially. And being Australia the focus at school was nearly always on team sports involving balls… not really my thing! Being the 80’s I did do aerobics once a week for a while… but that soon became just an excuse to meet the guys from the gym room afterwards!
In my 20’s I did pretty much no exercise. I got to WW goal (yep, I am a lifetime member in the UK) with only incidental exercise. Being without a car in the UK meant there was a fair bit of incidental exercise I admit. But I still did nothing ‘extra’.
In my early 30’s I required a knee reconstruction. After the surgery I was on a strict rehabilitation exercise program and ‘accidentally’ lost 10kg. And discovered I loved to ride my bike! After that I got a personal trainer who came to my house twice a week. And discovered I loved running!
I have never actually been slim and fit at the same time.
This morning the image of how I want to be when I am slim came to me very clearly.
I want to be a runner.
I want to lose weight so that my joints hurt less. I want to eat right to fuel my body. I want a runner’s body, slim and toned. I want to do weights and cross train to reduce injury.
The plan changes not at all. Weight Watchers and floor work to strengthen my hip and core until I can start doing more cardio. Short walks until I can start the C25K again. But I feel more motivated and focussed.
My first goal is the 14km ‘run4thekids’ race which is next in March/April 2011. But if I reach this goal the year following that is fine too – as long as I am happy I have done everything I can to reach it. I know I have to be patient with my hip.
Wow, long blog! Well done if you read this far!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Me
I am easily swayed. If I talk to my step brother about triathlons I want to take part. Last nights Australian TBL with them running a marathon makes me want to run a marathon. Women who embrace their size make me want to be more accepting of myself. Women who dress with individuality and flair make me want to do the same.
I need to have a much stronger picture of who I am. I used to. It got lost somewhere in the past 10 years.
I know who I want to be on the inside. But what I don’t know is how I want that to be shown.
I can’t picture a slim me without trying to paste my head on someone else’s body.
I need to have a much stronger picture of who I am. I used to. It got lost somewhere in the past 10 years.
I know who I want to be on the inside. But what I don’t know is how I want that to be shown.
I can’t picture a slim me without trying to paste my head on someone else’s body.
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