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"You can have the results you say you want, or you can have all the reasons in the world why you can’t have them. But you can’t have both. Reasons or results. You get to choose."


Susan Carlson

Thursday, July 1, 2010

"That" Moment

Last night I had an incident that reminded me that being obese is not a comfortable situation.

Some of you may know that one of my biggest weight loss issues is that my weight does not bother me enough to encourage the changes I need to make.

Last night it did.

I sat in a seat on the train.  A middle seat.  My butt fit (my butt is not the biggest bit of me) but my torso did not.  I could not lean back.  So after about 20 secs, and surely fire engine red, I stood up again.  And a skinny guy took the seat while I stood up until an aisle seat became free.  

Last night my obesity caused me physical and emotional discomfort (standing on the train for 30 minutes is not comfortable at my weight after a day at work).

Tomorrow I have a day off.

I will be listening to my hypnotherapy CD.  

I will paint some pictures.

I will find time to work out a way to have me doing my floor/core work regularly so I can get back to my cardio.

I have lost 2kg in the past 10 weeks.  More luck than good management.  It is time to get serious.

I am 40 in 29 days.  I don’t mind getting older.  I have more pride in who I am now than I did 10 or even 5 years ago.  There thing I really want to change is my size.  There is a lot about me that is far from perfect, but I can embrace my faults when they do not cause harm to me or others.  My weight on the other hand is causing me harm.

2 comments:

Christine said...

I know that feeling...one of the most uncomfortaable experiences I had was when I went to the dollar theater at my highest weight.
I couldn't put the arms on the chair down. it might not seem like a big thing..but for my daughter and husband who were sitting next to me...it was obvious who had the issue.
That sucks.
Good luck.

Miz said...

I love the last paragraph as I felt the same when I turned 40 last year.
and you can do this.

your head is already there---and your body is notfarbehind.

xo xo

MizFit

Thursday, July 1, 2010

"That" Moment

Last night I had an incident that reminded me that being obese is not a comfortable situation.

Some of you may know that one of my biggest weight loss issues is that my weight does not bother me enough to encourage the changes I need to make.

Last night it did.

I sat in a seat on the train.  A middle seat.  My butt fit (my butt is not the biggest bit of me) but my torso did not.  I could not lean back.  So after about 20 secs, and surely fire engine red, I stood up again.  And a skinny guy took the seat while I stood up until an aisle seat became free.  

Last night my obesity caused me physical and emotional discomfort (standing on the train for 30 minutes is not comfortable at my weight after a day at work).

Tomorrow I have a day off.

I will be listening to my hypnotherapy CD.  

I will paint some pictures.

I will find time to work out a way to have me doing my floor/core work regularly so I can get back to my cardio.

I have lost 2kg in the past 10 weeks.  More luck than good management.  It is time to get serious.

I am 40 in 29 days.  I don’t mind getting older.  I have more pride in who I am now than I did 10 or even 5 years ago.  There thing I really want to change is my size.  There is a lot about me that is far from perfect, but I can embrace my faults when they do not cause harm to me or others.  My weight on the other hand is causing me harm.

2 comments:

Christine said...

I know that feeling...one of the most uncomfortaable experiences I had was when I went to the dollar theater at my highest weight.
I couldn't put the arms on the chair down. it might not seem like a big thing..but for my daughter and husband who were sitting next to me...it was obvious who had the issue.
That sucks.
Good luck.

Miz said...

I love the last paragraph as I felt the same when I turned 40 last year.
and you can do this.

your head is already there---and your body is notfarbehind.

xo xo

MizFit