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"You can have the results you say you want, or you can have all the reasons in the world why you can’t have them. But you can’t have both. Reasons or results. You get to choose."


Susan Carlson

Thursday, July 1, 2010

The scary truth

Marlin:       I promised I’d never let anything happen to him (Nemo).
Dory:          Hmm. That’s a funny thing to promise.
Marlin:       What?
Dory:          Well, you can’t never let anything happen to him. Then nothing would ever happen to him. Not much fun for little Harpo.

A little ‘Finding Nemo’ that was used to illustrate a point today on Craig Harpers blog.

The point being that getting out of your comfort zone is scary… but staying in it is worse.

I believe that I embrace change, but it turns out that part of me only applies when the change is easy to do.  Move house, move countries, change jobs, change my hair.  All easy changes I love to embrace. 

Get slim and fit?  Not so much.

Why?

Because it is hard work.  Because I have failed in the past and I hate failing.  It is hard to ‘fail’ at moving house.  It is much easier to ‘fail’ at weight loss.  Especially when you have ‘failed’ so many times before.

And what does this mean?

It means I have to be brutally honest with myself.

It means I can’t say ‘I am comfortable being obese’ as an excuse for staying that way.  That sentence is laughable, but I have taken to using it often and seriously.

I am not comfortable being obese.  I am just scared of failure.

Why am I scared of failure?

Well to be honest weight loss is all I have really tried and failed at.  I have been very lucky and academic success came my way fairly easily.  I have no hand eye coordination but rather than failing at ball sports I just didn’t try.   I was a failure at ‘relationships’ for a long time but then I found out why, fixed the issue and was able to move forward. Weight loss scares me because there is no way to avoid trying it even though I have failed at it in the past.  There is no ‘issue’ for me to fix to make the path forward easier.  

I just have to face my fears and move forward.

1 comments:

Sib said...

I am soooo hearing you Fiona. Are you sure it was you who wrote that and not me??

Thursday, July 1, 2010

The scary truth

Marlin:       I promised I’d never let anything happen to him (Nemo).
Dory:          Hmm. That’s a funny thing to promise.
Marlin:       What?
Dory:          Well, you can’t never let anything happen to him. Then nothing would ever happen to him. Not much fun for little Harpo.

A little ‘Finding Nemo’ that was used to illustrate a point today on Craig Harpers blog.

The point being that getting out of your comfort zone is scary… but staying in it is worse.

I believe that I embrace change, but it turns out that part of me only applies when the change is easy to do.  Move house, move countries, change jobs, change my hair.  All easy changes I love to embrace. 

Get slim and fit?  Not so much.

Why?

Because it is hard work.  Because I have failed in the past and I hate failing.  It is hard to ‘fail’ at moving house.  It is much easier to ‘fail’ at weight loss.  Especially when you have ‘failed’ so many times before.

And what does this mean?

It means I have to be brutally honest with myself.

It means I can’t say ‘I am comfortable being obese’ as an excuse for staying that way.  That sentence is laughable, but I have taken to using it often and seriously.

I am not comfortable being obese.  I am just scared of failure.

Why am I scared of failure?

Well to be honest weight loss is all I have really tried and failed at.  I have been very lucky and academic success came my way fairly easily.  I have no hand eye coordination but rather than failing at ball sports I just didn’t try.   I was a failure at ‘relationships’ for a long time but then I found out why, fixed the issue and was able to move forward. Weight loss scares me because there is no way to avoid trying it even though I have failed at it in the past.  There is no ‘issue’ for me to fix to make the path forward easier.  

I just have to face my fears and move forward.

1 comments:

Sib said...

I am soooo hearing you Fiona. Are you sure it was you who wrote that and not me??